Do You Ever Just Want to Yell?

That's how I feel today. I woke up happy with a great night's sleep, but that ended very quickly. My kids are just rotten. OK, not all of them, but enough that I just wondered what happened to everything they have ever been taught? Why do they take such pleasure in being mean to one another. I gave them all the "do unto others" and "be like Christ" speech, but I really just wanted to take them all down! Then I went home, chatted with mom and felt like I was good again. I headed to do some grocery shopping and all my anxiety came back. I'm about done shopping with Bo and Katy. After Wal-mart and about half way through Costco, I was just ready to cry. I promised them Chick Fil A, but ended up not. They, too, do not listen and were making me crazy. I was sweaty and grouchy and just wanted to be home in my underwear. We did a drive through at Taco Bell so I could have a Diet Pepsi and Katy cried the whole way home. I almost joined her. As I was unloading the groceries and beginning to sweat again, I just got really pissed off. I'm so sick of the frickin heat! Go away already. Katy was asleep by the time we got home so I put her in her bed, got a show started for Bo and went and had myself a little time out. OK, good to go again. Got groceries put away, headed to lay down with Bo and Katy woke up. I decided to let them both watch TV with Nick out in the living room and maybe a little alone time would do me good. Not so much. Now I have to go mail a package, pay my water bill and go sit in the stupid heat to watch a soccer game. Would I be a bad mom if I skipped it??? I really just want some cold sticky gooey ice cream. I know that will only make me sad later, so I'm resisting. I just need to suck it up and get through it. Obviously every one else is dealing with the hell that we live in, I should be able to as well. Guess it's time to get my pants on and go face the afternoon. I will apologize in advance if I happen to cut you off or run you off the road, I'm in a mood!