I'm So Over it

I know I go back and forth on this, but it's real this time.  I'm over it.  Done.  Tired of running.  My race is Saturday, 13.1 miles and I haven't run since last week.  I've only done 10 miles once.  One day while stressing about getting my runs in and being frustrated, it dawned on me.  This means nothing.  It's a race.  Totally irrelevant to my actual life.  Of course it's fun to do well, but I'm not going to.  I never got there.  So I decided once and for all that I just don't care.  I'm going to do it, but I'm not letting it ruin 2 weeks of my life worrying about it.  It's just a race!!  So I will do it, and do the best I can.  Then I will just be happy.  Whatever the time is.  THEN, I can run when I feel like it, not because I have to.  Having a race is great motivation, but sometimes.... you just need to stop.  That's where I am.  Running is a chore right now and chores aren't usually enjoyable.  I want to love it again.  So I welcome the break, plan on doing other activities to stay active and run when I want to.  So as for the race, whatever.  Whew!  That feels good♥